Pfft

Pffft. That's really all I have to say about that. Pfffft. There, I'll say it again. So Mr. Wonderful and I are trying to plan a weekend together. It's supposed to be just the two of us to celebrate our new found adoration towards each other. Pffft. PFFFFT I say.

So I'm in the middle of making the final arrangements, and he starts waffeling. It's not going to be perfect that weekend, so now he wants to change weekends. Maybe put it off for a couple of weeks, a month or so. He wants to change weekends to another weekend that would somehow be more perfect? All we're going to do is lay around naked for four days. What, may I ask, needs to be perfected on that?

So, we got in a tiff. Pfft I say. He has been the one that has been the driving force behind this. He is the one who tells me not to worry about it because we're meant to be together. He's the one who tells me that we can overcome anything together. NOW, he wants to postpone our weekend, because it's not going to be perfect. I think he's scared. I think he's starting to reconsider "us".

Which immediately brought up a whole different issue, which we've chosen to ignore since the beginning of the relationship. Ultimately this issue will likely be the end of us. This issue does in most couples who go through it. Yeah, there are the few that can make it, but get real. I'm not that lucky. So we talked about that. I told him that now would be the time to back out, if he's going to back out. He's actually thinking about it.

HE'S ACTUALLY THINKING ABOUT IT! Twit twit twitty twit. I shouldn't be mad that he's thinking about it. It would save us the potential of a huge amount of pain. I shouldn't be upset for him considering options that I actually give him. But I want him to not see backing out as an option. In any long term relationship there are problems. Every couple has issues. There is no happily ever after. You have to be recognize that failure is not an option. You have to accept that quitting is not one of the choices.

Now, I recognize that we are in the beginning of our relationship. I am not expecting him to tell me he loves me tomorrow. I'm not expecting a diamond at any point in the near future. I like to daydream about it, but I don't expect it. HOWEVER, if he's gonna be a quitter, I want to know now rather than later. Is that so wrong? Help me out here!